The week before last was filled with many obstacles and dilemmas for me. It had been a very long week. My everyday routine had been disrupted and I was missing the small things that one may take for granted that were actually "big things" in my life. In addition to the weeks series of unfortunate events, the weekend was fast approaching and my plans of going out of town for the three day weekend were up in the air. After everything that had happened, I was so very much looking forward to the weekend.
Thursday night I had come to the conclusion that I only had one choice in the matter...Let go and give it to God. I prayed and said God, I'm giving this to you, may Your will be done. Trusting God is never my issue. I'd like to say that I have radical faith, I KNOW that the God I serve is my ever present help in times of trouble. I KNOW how mighty, majestic, and great He is. Nothing that is of Him is impossible for Him. The problem was... was I going to like the outcome.
Friday I had received the news... my plans were still on course. Glory to God! I was so happy.
Saturday afternoons I do an online prayer meeting on Facebook live and pray for whoever needs prayer and for whatever God puts on my heart. I try to spend time alone worshiping, praising, and praying to God before going live. As I was in the secret place I could feel the atmosphere change and could feel the presence of God in the room with me. I went online and my prayer was so different. Holy Spirit was just flowing through me as I prayed.
After I finished up the prayer meeting, I was feeling alone. I was missing my man and missing the "normalcy" in our lives that had been disrupted. In that moment I could have called up a friend, or scrolled Facebook, or any number of things. Instead, I curled up with Jesus and soaked in His presence as I discussed with Him the things that were on my heart.
Within a very short time, God began to answer my unspoken prayers. Philly (my man) had the solution to our problems and everything would be back to normal in the morning. Literally minutes after that a friend of mine who happened to be in the same area called me up and we went to dinner.
I have been waiting on God to move on a certain situation in my life and I believe He had been giving me the answer on what to do but I never felt at ease about it. My friend and I were having a conversation and she started to speak on the same thing the Lord had been speaking to me about. After that conversation I felt such peace and knew it was time to make a move. In the past month, I've heard two people say to me "When you feel peace, that's when it's time to make the move". I absolutely knew it was time.
I went back to the hotel that night and as I laid in bed about to go to sleep I felt Holy Spirit nudging me to turn on worship music. I didn't. I fell asleep quickly. There are many times throughout the night that I find myself wheezing. Around 3 AM I woke up and music was playing from my phone.
It's your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise
We pour out our praise
It's your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise to You
My music player is almost always displayed on my phone screen even if it's not playing. I assumed I had somehow hit the play button in my sleep. I didn't touch my phone, left it sitting on the night stand and let the song continue to play. I crawled into bed and immediately fell back to sleep.
When I awoke a couple hours later that same exact song was playing. I didn't think anything of it until I realized it was on repeat. Had I turned the music on, that song would not have been on repeat. I have a playlist that is on shuffle. I would have never went to my file of songs, chose one song, and hit the repeat button.
It's no coincidence that I added this song to my phone around the time the breathing issues started. It's also no coincidence this song was playing as I slept through the night. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt God sent an angel, or He himself turned that song on.
Earlier in the week I was scrolling through Facebook and had come across a live of a ministry I once followed. The man was saying that we must be intentional with God. We must make time to worship, to praise, to spend time with Him, to get alone with him and shut the world out. He said we cannot plug our cell phone in for five minutes and expect it to be charged, and we cannot plug into God for five minutes and expect to be refilled.
I will be the first to admit, I don't spend enough time alone with God. My phone is always in front of my face, I'm always working, and I'm usually praying while driving...which prevents me from shutting everything out. That weekend was just what I needed. It was nothing short of a blessing.
I pray that you will take time today to be intentional with God. I pray that you will stop what you're doing, put down your phone AND mute it...turn it off if you have to. Turn off the television, go somewhere quiet where you can be alone and sit down and have a conversation with God. Talk to Him the same way you would talk to a friend, tell Him what's going on in your life, what's on your mind, and when you're done, stop and listen for him to speak to you. He's always speaking to us... sometimes we just aren't listening.
I love you and pray that you spend more time with God, bask in His presence, and seek Him always. If you'd like to receive new blog post notifications you can subscribe. If you'd like to leave a prayer request or a testimony please feel free to do so.
May God bless you!
Holly W <3